yeah, it has been a while, i know.
ive been busy teachering (oh is that even a word?). being a good teacher is not one easy thing.
same as being a good worker.
i swear, im not working my ass off to be the employee of the month or something. im not trying to kiss someone's ass, becoming the apple of his or her eyes. im not. i complete my work because that's my responsibility. i did my best because that's what i am, i have to do my best in everything i do, i just have to. im not trying to outshine others, im not trying to make myself outstanding compared to my other friends.
and yet, someone told me not to work very hard. someone told me not to give my best in every assignment that was given to me. someone told me that if i cant do the job, i just have to admit, and ask for help. someone told me that i dont have to do every work that has been assigned to me. someone told me to learn how to say NO.
because i am this close to become the apple of her eyes. and that someone told me that, all the apples of her eyes have to do more work that others. so if i keep trying to impress her or something, the music that i have to face is that i have to do more than others, because the only thing that matters to her is to get her job done. and that's the culture here. the more she loved someone, the more work that someone will get.
God i swear, i never did anything to impress anyone.
and now im so confused. should i just continue minding my own business and keep doing what i do now, and unintentionally keep impressing her? or should i do as that someone told me to? i dont want to risk my job, i dont want to risk my confirmation process.
im just doing my job for God sake!
ive been busy teachering (oh is that even a word?). being a good teacher is not one easy thing.
same as being a good worker.
i swear, im not working my ass off to be the employee of the month or something. im not trying to kiss someone's ass, becoming the apple of his or her eyes. im not. i complete my work because that's my responsibility. i did my best because that's what i am, i have to do my best in everything i do, i just have to. im not trying to outshine others, im not trying to make myself outstanding compared to my other friends.
and yet, someone told me not to work very hard. someone told me not to give my best in every assignment that was given to me. someone told me that if i cant do the job, i just have to admit, and ask for help. someone told me that i dont have to do every work that has been assigned to me. someone told me to learn how to say NO.
because i am this close to become the apple of her eyes. and that someone told me that, all the apples of her eyes have to do more work that others. so if i keep trying to impress her or something, the music that i have to face is that i have to do more than others, because the only thing that matters to her is to get her job done. and that's the culture here. the more she loved someone, the more work that someone will get.
God i swear, i never did anything to impress anyone.
and now im so confused. should i just continue minding my own business and keep doing what i do now, and unintentionally keep impressing her? or should i do as that someone told me to? i dont want to risk my job, i dont want to risk my confirmation process.
im just doing my job for God sake!