new love.

salam.

sgt lame tak meng-update.bz skit dgn mcm2 bende:

1) buat soklan exam.fizik tingkatan 4.

2) stapler soklan exam.

3) C++

4) eh,tu je ke?hikhik.

ok.now.the truth.sebenanrnye kurg ade mood untuk mengupdate blog skrg,sbb extremely tired.slalu pkul 11 tu dh tak larat dh nk berjaga.lagi2 bile saya dh jumpe new love.

dan brown.

ok,now u wonder who the heaven dan brown is.he is the writer of da vinci code.n angels and demons.n me as an unstoppable bookworm ever existed in this peaceful little world is a common knowledge.so hari tu dkt AXN(channel 701) ade la cerita da vinci code ni.sgt best ok.ok.memg boring.cerita pasal christianity and jesus and leonardo da vinci n stuff.saya tau memg boring.tapi saya suka!so terus saya menGoogle pdf version of the novel.n jumpe.n i spent like my every free second to read the book.n as u can guess, it turns out to be soooo interesting.

dn hari tu saya dn khairul/fadzli/en. Boyfren pon nk pg tgk wayang.after genap 9 minggu tak jumpe ok.n takde cerita ape pun yg tak boring.khairul nk tgk terminator salvation yg mase tu blom kuar lg, n im waiting for my harry potter to be released.dn ternampak la poster angels n demons.rase nye baru release 2,3 hari kot.dan saya pun:

me: sayang,nak tgk angels n demons bleh?

khairul: angels and what?

me: ni ha poster ni.writer da vinci code.continue cite die.watak hero yg same.

khairul: oh.bleh2.tp kene tgk betul2 la.tak bleh nk merengek2 lapar la ngantuk la.

me: hukhuk.yela2.janji.

dn khairul pun pg beli tiket.n cite memg best la.still lagi pasal stuff mcm dlm da vinci code,christianity and jesus n whatever,tp kali ni die cerita pasal election of Pope.or dlm bm nye kite panggil Paus.the highest order dlm christianity.serius memg best.n thank Allah yg khairul pun share the same interest;die pun ske tgk da vinci code.so he enjoyed the movie too.

dn saya pun, balik je,sebaik saje saya dpt access pd internet,terus la download pdf version of the novel.n im not dissapointed at all.bile aifaa tgk saya sgt immersed dgn novel pdf ni:

aifaa: eeee takutnye aku.banyaknye tulisan.sejarah plak tu.

dn saya hanya mampu tersenyum.tatau la kenapa saya bleh jatuh cinta plak dgn buku2 mcm ni.

bukan lah saya jatuh cinta pada christianity.Astaghfirullah al-Adzim.mintak simpang la.saya bangga saya dilahirkan muslim dn kekal muslim.saya percaya pada Tuhan saya.cuma sgt menarik sebenarnye bile saya tau tradisi agama tu.saya rase seronok,thrill n excited untuk tau cerita pasal Nabi Isa A.S. dari sudut pandangan diorang.dan diorg sendiri tau Bible tu adalah karangan manusia yang dh disesuaikan mengikut zaman dan keperluan, tapi still diorg nk ikut lagi.uhuhuhu.so its their faith.saya bukan pakar agama untuk debatkan soal ni.saya cume suke bile dpt tau bende baru.ehehehe.

so saya dh download digital fortress and deception point,both by dan brown.dn tahun ni akan release satu lagi novel die, the lost symbol.dn skrg im on my way to finish digital fortress.

the real books?memandangkan keadaan ekonomi sendiri yang semakin teruk skrg ni (uhuhuhuhuhu salah saya sbb saya memg faul la dlm bab meng-organize duit2 saya) jadi saya holdkan dulu pembelian buku2 tersebut.saya still akan beli.my love for books is sooo and sooo deeep im gonna buy every book that i fell in love with.cume bile saya banyak duit la.skrg ni byk lagi keperluan lain.maka saya dah rase cukup puas hati walaupun cuma baca pdf version je.

teringat zaman kecik2 dulu bile cikgu tanye:

cikgu: yuhaniz, awak nak buat ape kalo awak dapt satu juta ringgit?

me: saya nk beli buku banyak2 cikgu.saya nk buat library besar2 yang ade banyak2 buku.

see.i was sooooo a bookworm back then.n still am.n proud,really2 proud of it.

mesti awak sume ingat saya total geek dgn spec besar old school bwk bagpack berat n buku stebal 10cm ke mana2 kan?

u have 2 choices. 1) judge me already. 2) know me first n then u judge me. whatever.i dun care.i still love books.

hihi.

ps:knp saya label post ni sbg health problem?sbb saya rase org yg sakit dn perlukan rawatn je yg sanggup habiskan mase berjam2 bace buku2 dan brown ni.blom lagi saya start bace jane austin.mase tu saya akan self-admit diri saya dlm psychiatric ward.ehehehe.

saya peduli ape.saya suke bace buku.live with it.

another exhausting day.

salam.

hari ni perjalanan memg panjang.

pagi tadi lapor diri kat skolah.print soalan fizik paper 1 tingkatan 4.hantar borang reso.

pkul 9.30 gerak (cabut sbnrnye.kat skolah ade latihan fire-drill.kitorg kire rentung la.tp dh btau GPK 1 kitorg kene pg upm ok.hal sgt penting.berkaitan hidup dn mati.uhuhuhu.) g upm.jumpe dr zarina.setel sume kol 12.30.cari along tak jumpe.rupenye die g land field.balik umah pink.kol 2.30 gerak kuar.g upm cari org sume x jumpe.pastu pkol 3.30 gerak balik.

smpi pd kol 4.30.aifaa ajak g mkn toast kat bangi kopitiam(bukan kat bangi ok.kat pd.saujana walk.btol2 depan pantai batu 4.sebelah die ade branch restoran sate haji samuri.marilah ke PD.).pkul 5.00 smpi umah.baring2.pkul 6 siap2 nk g bacaan yasin kat skola sempena smabutan hari guru.

pkul 7 smpi skolah.tahlil punye doa was like FOREVER.panjang gile doa die.uhuhuhuhuhu.pastu ade jamuan.makan ayam masak lemak cili api.

skrg dh stgh jam smpi umah.print lesson plan smpi ari isnin.nk tido awal hari ni.esok dr shaffe dtg observe aifaa.kemungkinan besar pn shima pun nk dtg.

tp,despite all the hecticness n sourness n penat-ness,esok en. Boyfren nk dtg.trun PD.his bday is on saturday.what am i getting him?of coz i wont tell u!! *winkwink*

ps:penat sgt minggu ni.uhuhuhuhuhu.

the 8th week.

salam.

minggu ni dh masuk minggu ke 8.

rutin harian masih lagi mcm biasa. bgn pkul 6.15pg,balik skolah pkul 3 ptg.skrg hari isnin adalah hari paling exhausting.sbb hari isnin ade taklimat guru yg salunye habis pkul 4.30 ptg.pastu pkul 8, kami berdua di minta mengajar kelas tusyen asrama, subj sains tingkatan 2.start smlm.maka hari isnin dpt anugerah hari paling hectic sedunia.skrg ni,pkul 10.30 mlm tu paling lmbt la tido.uhuhuhu.sungguh2 jd cikgu ni penat.ni belum lagi kawen.blum ade anak.hai la....

hari isnin (semalam) dr Shafee (supervisor untuk subj minor) dh dtg observe skali. esok (rabu) dr Shafee dtg lg skali untuk observe kali kedua. hari jumaat, dr Shafee dtg lagi untuk observe Aifaa pulak.yg hari jumaat tu, kebarangkalian untuk pn Shima (supervisor subj major) dtg sgt tinggi.sbb minggu depan dh exam mid term.

minggu ke-9 dn minggu ke-10.

untuk form 4 n form 5, minggu depan dh start exam...so saya akan belajar bende baru lagi, iaitu menjadi guru penjaga exam.uhuhuhu.jadual waktu kelas mcm bese,so bile dh dilihat2 kepada jadual exam form4 n form 5 tu,maka inilah kelas yg bakal saya jaga untuk exam.

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isnin (18/5):

sambutan hari guru.

selasa(19/5):

8.50-9.30pg. kelas: 4A8. subj: english II.

10.40-11.50: kelas: 1A5. mengajar cam bese.budak2 lower form lom start exam lg.

rabu(20/5):

9.30-10.50. kelas: 1A3. mengajar cam bese.

12.40-2.00. kelas: 2A7. mengajar cam bese.

khamis(21/5):

takde kelas.

jumaat(22/5):

11.10-12.20. kelas: 4A8. subj: sains 2.

isnin(25/5):

11.05-12.25. kelas: 4A8. subj: biologi II.

selasa(26/5):

8.50-9.30. kelas: 4A8. subj: fizik I (paper ni saye yg buat soalan,saya yg ajar kelas ni.hrp2 la budak tak mintak jwpn.uhuhuhu)

10.40-11.50. kelas: 1A5. subj: tatau lg.

rabu(27/5):

9.30-10.50. kelas: 1A3. subj: tatau lg.

12.40-2.00. kelas: 2A7. subj: tatau lg.

khamis(28/5):

takde kelas.

jumaat(29/5):

11.10-12.20. kelas: 4A8. subj: sivik.

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kelas 2A7 masih lagi menguji dan menguji kesabaran.stiap kali hari rabu,memg pening sgt dibuatnye.tatau nk ajar ape...dn berdebar2 memikirkan reaksi budak2 yg susah nk dijangka.kdg2 diorg ni baik,kdg2 bile angin nakal diorg smpi,memg tak terkejar semua.dgn saiz kelas yg sungguh tidak kondusif (35-40 org setiap kelas, kelas 2A7 ade 38 org setakat ni), cikgu memg tak dpt nk capai semua budak.

4A8,masih jugak mcm tu.kelas ni student sikit, 23 org.tolak la frequent ponteng-ers yg kejap muncul kejap tak, kelas saya tak pernah ckup 20 org pun spnjg 8 mnggu saya dh mengajar kelas ni.senang nk manage,saya bleh bg attention dkt sume org.students pun dh mintak extra class untuk revision.seriously,saya lebih suka mengajar fizik dpd mengajar ICT.sbb fizik silibus jelas,ade rujukan.ade buku teks.tp ICT hanye berpandukan modul2 yg memg tak bleh nk dilaksanakan sbb tak cukup komputer.perkara biasa kat skolah,beli la komputer byk mane pun,memg tak akan cukup.

sejak2 dpt kelas baru (1A3 dn 1A5) dn meninggalkan satu kelas yg saya suka (1A7), jadual mcm dh penuh sgt.tak terlihat la muka kitorg ni kat bilik guru tu.ye la,kelas kitorg sume dkt lab, lab fizik dn ICT.sbb la due lab ni memg la jauh dpd bilik guru, jadi kitorg amek keputusan lepak je kat lab ICT.pg2 je tunggu bilik guru, tu pun sbb tunggu relief.stgh jam sblom kelas first start, kitorg dh cau dh pg lab.

dn sejak akhir2 ni jugak, sakit kaki makin menjadi2. jadi cikgu memg memenatkan. serious. jalan sane,jalan sini. naik tangga sane,naik tangga sini. blom lagi berdiri spnjg mase mengajar tu.huhuhu.tp redha je lah.ilmu kan.dulu en. Zol azlan (lecturer Kaedah MengajarFizik) kate,kalo cikgu2 ni redha dn ikhlas sebarkan dn sampaikan ilmu2 diorg,diorg dpt byk sgt pahala,selagi ilmu tu budak2 gunekan,dn sampaikan lagi pulak pade org lain.mcm tanam saham pahala la.uhuhuhu.bab pahala tu memg sesuai la kat saya.dosa2 ni dh koyan2 smpi tak tertanggung dh rasenye.tp bab ikhlas tu,haih.bak kate kwn baik saya, Nahar, "anis ni asyik mengeluh je...".uhuhuhu.di manekah keikhlasan ku di situ..takpela.ikhlas tu subjektif,biar Allah je yg ukur dn bagi pahala.semoga saya dpt byk2.amiiin.

so esok ade 2 kelas, 1A3, yg mane sy akan kene observe dgn dr Shafee, dn 2A7 (haih...............).due2 ICT.make esok saya akan bertapa di lab ICT spnjg hari (kecuali kalo ade relief).

Tuhan...berilah kekuatan.............

ps:terima kasih kat sume2 org yg wish bday ari tu...time kaseh sbb ingat.....

pps:doakan saya bertahan lagi 4 minggu praktikal ni, n years n years to come sbg guru...sbb saya rase,sistem pertahanan badan saya dh hampir2 nk berhenti berfungsi ni..uhuhuhuhu...

a moment please.

ok.it has been quite a while.i know.

so many unpredictable, unexpected things happened these days.haih.but to discuss them here is not a wise thing to do bcz most of them involved secrecy and confidetiality thus they cannot be told to public.at least from my side.from me.

and this is the one thing i despise the most.

publicizing the other side of story to the public.the oh-so-not-true version some more.

im not a good girl.im a bad,bad one in many,many ways.im a hypocrite.i smile to people i hate.i judge people.i have one loud mouth.i can be so mean if i want to.if i have to.but i did not spread out oh-so-not-true story about people i hate.that is soo not my thing.

but people seem to love bad-mouthing and back-talking me.people seem to love spreading oh-so-not-true stories about me.one thing about one-side-stories is, they always side to the story-tellers.or the story-spreaders,to be precise.the human version of CNN.or al-jazeera.or buletin utama.whatever.the point is,from the story-spreaders' sides,im the bad guy.im the one who hurt them deeply.im the one who had betrayed them.whatever,i dun care.u can pick whatever words that come out from ur stinky,stinky mouth.u can pour out whatever content of ur ugly,ugly heart.u can tell whatever stories that ur pea-sized brain come up with.i dun care.

bcz i dun care about the stories.u can say whatever u want,i dun give a damn.its ur mouth.dosa tanggung sendiri.im jz tired of hearing so many versions of oh-so-not-true stories from so many different people about me.im sick of people asking me the truth.ok.so asking the stories is a good thing to do.wanting to listen to the other side of the story is also one good thing to do.if u want clarification.if u know me well and u dont believe that i actually did such thing.fine.but if u want to butt in other people's business,if u want to be such a kepoh-bitchy who jz cant help interfering in my business,n help spreading them some more,adding spices here and there,making the stories sound a lot worse than they already are,keep ur butt out before i kick them out.

so to u out there,please.im saying please with such a nice,soft tone here.stop spreading stories,whether its true or not.im sorry if im wrong,n i dun expect apologies from u if im right.people always find it easier to forgive people for being wrong than being right.whatever.i actually dun give a damn hell who is wrong or whose side is right,i jz dun care.spreading stories is not good for ur physical health.bcz if u ever crossed the patience level line even by one-sixteenth of an inch,u might end up losing people's respect, and that is not something u get to earn in one day.or worse,u might end up losing some vital parts of ur body.

my patience is sooo close to the surface nowadays,so i beg u not to test me anymore.i can transform to a supersaiya ke-empatbelas any moment now.i'll transform to one huge,ugly,ugly green monster,and i'll eat u alive.u will die slowly.with a great amount of pain.n u will beg me for my mercy.but merciness never exist in my life's dictionary.

of course not literally.

ps:read this with such a calm voice, n a calm heart.noticed that i didnt even use a single punctuation mark there?bcz im saying this nicely.softly.so soft it sounds much more dangerous than it actually is.

pps:i actually care.

For whom it may concern.

for the record baby, i am a bad, bad girl.never been a good one.but the 'cucuk-cucuk' thingy was never my thing.i dun wanna care,if i could.i dun wanna butt in,if i dun have to.but thanks for the compliment anyway.i love being on the bad side.