the workload is killing me. when there is too much work at work, when im back at home, i dont feel like doing anything. and i end up lying in front of the tv until 11 o'clock and go to the bed early, or i will sleep as early as 9.30.
and ive been thinking much lately. im not a person who can concentrate on more than one thing at one time. i have to do things one by one, because i can only give my commitment to one thing at a time. if there's too many things that i need to focus on, to give my attention to, everything that should be done will not be done. im so messy that way. that's why during the exam week, be it mid year or even trial, i cant concentrate on my other work, distributing papers, making bills, and organizing my class.
that's why ive been thinking of quitting my masters and apply for a taught course masters in utm. which is nearer to me, and does not consume as much time as doing the research. i do want to get my masters and phd, but i think, after working, my priority had change so much. i used to concentrate in my creative work well after sleeping hours, because that's when my idea flows like a non-stop flowing river, but now i cant stay up longer than i used to, because i have to go to work before 7.15 the next day. i cant. ive tried so hard, but i cant. i know what im capable of and what im not, so i think this is the best decision i can make.
but i dont know how to talk and discuss this with my supervisor. he who had and still has been so kind to me through everything. i dont have the heart to tell this to him. but i cant continue to be like this. i'll upset him no matter what i choose to do, so i think its better for me to quit as soon as i can.
i dont even know what to do.
im so blank.
indecisive.
help me.
and ive been thinking much lately. im not a person who can concentrate on more than one thing at one time. i have to do things one by one, because i can only give my commitment to one thing at a time. if there's too many things that i need to focus on, to give my attention to, everything that should be done will not be done. im so messy that way. that's why during the exam week, be it mid year or even trial, i cant concentrate on my other work, distributing papers, making bills, and organizing my class.
that's why ive been thinking of quitting my masters and apply for a taught course masters in utm. which is nearer to me, and does not consume as much time as doing the research. i do want to get my masters and phd, but i think, after working, my priority had change so much. i used to concentrate in my creative work well after sleeping hours, because that's when my idea flows like a non-stop flowing river, but now i cant stay up longer than i used to, because i have to go to work before 7.15 the next day. i cant. ive tried so hard, but i cant. i know what im capable of and what im not, so i think this is the best decision i can make.
but i dont know how to talk and discuss this with my supervisor. he who had and still has been so kind to me through everything. i dont have the heart to tell this to him. but i cant continue to be like this. i'll upset him no matter what i choose to do, so i think its better for me to quit as soon as i can.
i dont even know what to do.
im so blank.
indecisive.
help me.