funny englishmen:how on earth did they invent this complicated language?

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,

But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.

One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,

Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,

Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,

And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?

If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,

Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,

And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.

We speak of a brother and also of brethren,

But though we say mother, we never say methren.

Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,

But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!

Let's face it - English is a crazy language.

There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;

neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England .

We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes,

we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square,

and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,

grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.

If you have a bunch of odds and ends

and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?

Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English

should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?

We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.

We have noses that run and feet that smell.

We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.

And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,

while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language

in which your house can burn up as it burnsdown,

in which you fill in a form by filling it out,

and in which an alarm goes off by going on.

And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother's not Mop?

AND IF PEOPLE FROM POLAND ARE CALLED POLES THEN

PEOPLE FROM HOLLAND SHOULD BE HOLES

AND THE GERMANS, GERMS!!!

how on earth did they invent this complicated language?

yay.yay.yay.

im yay!-ing.

why?

bcz i'll be out to pick my cousin -- Nurain Abd Rahman -- dkt hentian serdang in approximately 30 min.

bcz sok n lusa maybe takde air kt flat ni dn im soo not going to go thru d no-water-supply experience bcz im running away to her house kat kajang!seriously guys,air kaler coklat pun dh sengsara,ni kan lgsg2 takde air?

bcz im gonna spend a sleepless nite with her tonite,catching up stories n exchanging gossips!yeah!we love gossiping!

bcz keje yg ku janjikan pd my besfren cik faiz 'pusing' telah pun selesai tp emel skrg tgh ngok sbb takleh attach file akibat connection tenet yg maha lembap,maka akan ku hantar file nye kpd kamu secepat mungkin ya!

n no entry til monday!

a chaotic solace.

salam.

few days without real entry.huhu.sgt lah bz,dgn kerja tertangguh sebenarnya.

so diz week,ive been spending my time kat library.knp?sbb proposal untuk master memg x siap lg.dn ari rabu my supervisor nk jumpe.tp die takdela btau die nk apa2.jz takut je la sbb keje x siap kan.ahaha.so dok la kat library ari2 menyiapkan proposal.smpila ari rabu.

ari rabu,bgn pkul 8.aifaa btau dh smpi kajang,n that's jz 1 station away from serdang!ok.so aku bgn dgn kelamkabutnye,gosok baju kurung,sbb pkul 9 ade amek gmbr dgn my kosmet.mandi,siap.packing laptop.panaskan enjin kete.pkul 8.30 baru smpi stesen komuter.kesian la my sister sorg ni,stgh jam tgu kat bustop.tp mcm besela,dgn huge smile,die masuk dlm kete.hehe.sori sis.

pastu pg breakfast dkt parkview.aifaa bwk roti sedap perisa blueberry,yg memg fav kitorg.so ingt nk pg kedai sblh parkview,beli strawberry milk for her,n choc milk for me.tp sbb sgt pg lagi,maka kdi x bukak.so pg la mkn nasi goreng kat parkview.pkul 9,pg bangunan baru FPP.terserempak plak dgn dr fauzi.ahahaha.due2 dh memg kalut la,sbb plan nk jumpe die ptg nt.tp die pun mcm buat tatau je.hikhik.thank Allah.

so pg la bangunan baru FPP,n as expected,kamila org ptama yg smpi.x lama lepas tu,nmpk wiro.n nadia nasir.pastu kitorg pg kaunter LMPK,nk tgk penyelia untuk praktikal.kitorg due2 org under Dr Shaffee n Puan Shima.ok la kot,Puan Shima maybe kinda fussy skit,tp Dr Shaffee baik.kalo buat btol2 untuk praktikal ni,insya Allah bleh dpt A untuk latihan mengajar major n minor.kalo dpt A due2,bleh dpt 4.0 sem ni.ahahaha.pastu terserempak la dgn budak2 ni.maka kami pun beramai2 la pg bangunan baru FPP tu.

smpi je kat situ,dh ramai jugak la budak2.kire mcm ala2 jejak kasih TV3 jugak la,sbb kitorg due org kan dh xde kelas,so memg x jumpe diorg la spnjg sem ni.ahahaha.pastu Aida ckp tukar tempat,dkt blkg DKFPP.maka segerombolan teachers-to-be ni pun bergerakla beramai2 ke sana.pakai blazer.proses mencari blazer yg sesuai memg took time.ahahaha.yela.tamo la nmpk gmok dlm blazer yg oversize kan.pastu proses memposing pun bermula.jalan2 la kat pdg blkg DKFPP,sblh swimming pool tu.memg cantik la view sbb waterlily tgh blooming dkt tasik tu.cume yg x bestnye,sbb pagi kan,dn skrg ni pun musim hujan lebat,so pdg tu kinda basah la.membataskan posing.ahahaha.tp all in all,memg fun sgt.dh lame x jumpe budak2 ni.tu pun x sume ade.



pas je abes bende posing tu,kitorg pun bergegas la pg PK,sbb last nite aku sakit perut.sbnrnye dh lama sakit perut ni,tp aku dh x lrt nk tahan kalo sakit lg.huhu.pg PK.pastu dr kate,kene amek xray.2 kali plak tu.dh la kene baring.practically naked la kan,if the xray gown yg sehelai tu tidak dikira.huhu.dh la xray technician tu lelaki.malu2.pastu dh dpt films tu,org xray tu tanye,

'u ni atlet ke?main sukan?'

aku pun tkejut la.aku atlet?hardly.kalo aku ni atlet,maka Osama Laden adalah adek beradik dgn George Bush.huhu.sgt impossible.atlet kuak lentok bleh la,bak kate unai.ahahaha.pastu aku jwb la,

'atlet?takdela.kenapa?'
'awk punye spine ni mcm bengkok skit la.pnh eksiden ke?'
'x pun.teruk ke?'
'skit la.maybe this is what causing u pain.'
'oh.ok.'

dn die pun hand me my films.soh bwk g bilik dr.dr tgk punye tgk films tu,dr kate,

'sy kene hantar reporting ni.khamis mgu depan baru dpt balik.so bleh x jumpe sy ari jumaat depan?'
'oh.bleh2.'
'so,untuk sakit tu,sy bg awak panadol je buat masa ni.dn sy bg awk constipation juice la,sbb awk ada mslh nk buang air besar kan.'
'oh.ok.time kaseh dr.'

so there's an appointment with the dr next friday.dan pastu aku menunggu la ubat di kaunter ubat tu.sbnrnye aku xde la menganggap jarang buang air besar tu sbg mslh,sbb aku memg jarang.ahahaha.tp dr nk bg ubat kan.so aku amek jela.n finally no aku dipanggil,dn dr bg 2 keping panadol,dn 2 botol duphalac/lactulose 50mL.hai dr ni.saje nk bg aku cirit birit agaknye.huhu.aifaa kate aku memg cacat,dh la tangan bengkok,tulang belakang pun bengkok jugak.cis.nasib baikla aku syg ko.kalo x ko yg bengkok.ahahaha.

n at 12,kitorg pun meninggalkan PK.destinasi seterusnye:library.

alhamdulillah,ade 1 empty parking lot kat library.luck agaknye.so kitorg pun terkedek2 la bjalan memikul laptop yg berat,bukan masuk library,tp pg mkn kat kafe library.lunch.ahahaha.

dh mkn,masuk la blok A library.aku pun siapkan la keje,aifaa cari bhn.dn aku rase library skrg ni smakin panas.tatau knp?

pkul 2.30,pas solat zuhur,g la jumpe dr fauzi.pokpekpokpek,smpi la pkul 3.30.so skrg dpt keje baru,kene buat soalan untuk need analysis,dn proposal before april.hai.nasib baik dr x marah.hehe.

dh siap tu,aifaa bnje mkn kat KFC.best la bile aifaa is around,asyik bg aku mkn je.hihi.pastu along msg ajak tgk cite upin dn ipin kat mines.aku pun ok je la kan.anta aifaa g stesen komuter,pastu aku pun balik umah tgu along balik.

dlm pkul 5.15 along smpi.amek aku,aku memg dh siap2 tgu kat bwh,so trus g mines.dpt la tiket pkul 5.30,tp kitorg masuk lmbt skit sbb solat asar dulu.masuk2 je cite baru start.so duduk la tgk kan.unfortunately my headache is killing me,so aku pun x dpt la nk gelak btol2 bile sume org gelak.sibuk lyn sakit kepala.tp memg best la.ahahaha.

pas tgk wayang,neya beli mknn kat fudkot mines.bungkus je,sbb sume org penat,nk solat maghrib kat umah.trus balik umah.aku ni memg siap2 dh sakit kepala yg rase mcm nk meletup je,smpi2 trus mandi,solat maghrib,mkn panadol,aku trus tido.dlm pkul 8.pkul 11 terjaga,tgk along ngn neya pun dh tido.one of the rare ocassion la,sbb along memg salu tido awal,tp jarang la die tgal CSI.mlm td ade 2 CSI plak tu.dn neya salunye pkul 12 baru tido.so aku pun bancuh air teh o,yg memg tawar sbb aku memg x ske teh yg manis.tgk tv,smbil menghabiskan teh o se mug.dh abes,aku pun tido balik.

pg td tjaga subuh pkul 6.45.alarm.pas bgn solat,aku pun baring balik.bdn dh rase semacam je.memg x larat gile nk bgn.so aku pun baring dn tido.sblum g UPM,along masuk bilik to check on me,pastu die pun pg la 'keje'.bleh la nk kate keje,since memg duration nye 8-4 or 9-5,dn diorg kene punch card kan.huhu.so im alone kat umah.nk masak x bdaya,so aku mkn megi dn nescafe 3 in 1 je.smpi skrg blum mkn nasi lg,akibat trip2 ke toilet stiap 10 minit yg ntah bile nk berhenti setelah meminum constipation juice pg td.aku pun merungut,dn khairul kate,

'its ok baby,jz bear with it.at least it can clear ur tummy from toxin yg dh bkilo2 tu.nk baik kan?'

btul jugak.huhu.my aunt drop by,nk btau mlm ni ade kenduri lg kat umah my other aunt.tp clearly im not in a state that allow me to drive,so after a short trip to hosp,die pun balik,leaving me alone kat umah ni.huhu.

that's it for diz week.sgt chaos,n hari ni baru hari khamis!weekend nt tatau pe cite?yg pntg kene siapkan keje sblum die bertimbun.huhu.

tp memg best.sbb dpt jumpe aifaa,dpt tau ape mslhnye yg buat aku asyik sakit je,dpt jumpe kosmet2 yg dh memg lame x jumpe,dn dpt jumpe my aunt.


its solace in a chaos.or a chaotic solace.


salam.

the 'coma' period.

no post for a while.

the writer tersangatlah busy dgn keje2 tertangguh.







will be back as soon as she can.

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salam.

hari ni aku dikejutkan dgn berita yg sgt2 menyedihkan dn menyakitkan hati.
cerita tentang makcik2 mempunyai mulut2 yg kepoh,berbau bangkai dn mcm haram,serta mempunyai hobi menambahbesarkan cerita supaya kononnya akan nmpk lagi vogue,gempak dn memalukan.

aku rasa perangai kepoh ni memg adalah trait semulajadi makcik2 mulut longkang yg berumur 50 tahun dan ke atas,yg mempunyai akal secetek kuah kari cecah roti canai kat kedai mamak,fikiran tertutup,kolot dan konservatif,mengaku anak2 mereka adalah anak2 terbaik di dunia dn asyik mencari kesalahan dan keburukan anak2 org lain,tanpa menyedari,ataupun buat2 tak menyedari yg anak mereka mempunyai perangai yg lebih haram dpd org lain yg mereka gosipkan.yg sibuk menjaga tepi kain org lain,tanpa menyedari yg kain sendiri dah lama terlucut.yg tidak mempunyai kerja lain selain dpd bergosip dn menokoktambahkan cerita dgn segala jenis perasa dn ajinamoto yg ada.

dan aku rasa jugak,mereka ni asyik mencari kelemahan,kesalahan dn keburukan org lain kerana mereka ingin menutup kelemahan dn keburukan sendiri.mereka tidak mahu org berkata tentang keluarga mereka,menyebabkan mereka menyibukkan fikiran org dgn perkara2 yg direka2 dn ditambah perisa.

aku x phm la korg ni.yg korg pg sibuk2 nk btau yg anak org tu pakai mcm ni,anak org ni buat bende tu apahal?korg tak tgk ke anak2 korg sdiri?korg rase anak2 korg tu baik sgt ke?korg rase family korg memg dh takde keburukan ke?sempurna?smpi sibuk2 nk jg tepi kain org len?

seriously,dont u guys have better things to do, besides being such a nossy git?

since korg ade byk sgt mase terluang,smpikan bleh jalan2 sane sini,sebar2kan berita tak betul,fikir teruk2 buat resepi baru,tmbh perasa ajinamoto segala bagai supaya cerita2 korg tu kedengaran sedap,hangat lagi sensasi,aku cdg kan,korg ni pg la mane2 masjid,dgr la ceramah2 agama,sedarkan diri sendiri yg korg tu memg dh x lama dh atas dunia ni.byk2 kan baca Quran,dekat2 kan diri dgn Tuhan.pastu takkan la nk dok dlm masjid je kan.balik je pas abes ceramah agama tu,dh bace Quran,solat sunat taubat sume,korg tgk la family korg,anak2 korg buat ape,husband korg ade pompuan lain ke x, n instead of jalan2 jaja cerita,pe kate korg g jalan2 minta maaf dgn org yg korg dh tabur fitnah,cerita palsu segala gosip segala bagai.

as for me,as long as u stay behind the line,i couldnt care less what u wanna say about me.call me anything,if that helps u sleep soundly at night.i dun give a f***ing damn.but once u cross the boundary,once u hurt my mother's feeling,i will never hesitate to be the most f***ing rude niece ever existed in the whole universe.i can be what i am now,a kind,quiet,well-mannered girly girl,but i can always be a mean bitch,when i want to.ive been keeping my big mouth shut all this while,watching u stinky,rude,poor-mannered f***ing old women hurting my mom's feeling over n over again,bcz i dont want to be such a kurang ajar punya anak sedara.i am a well-raised,educated,smart girl.i can control my anger,increase my patience limit.my mom taught me well.but this is almost too much,n my anger has become closer to the surface now.so never,ever think about stepping on the line,let alone crossing the line.dont test my patience.i can blow anytime now.


i am indeed a bitch.so jz watch ur big f***ing mouth,bcz mine can be bigger than urs!

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The one you have yet to fight for.

tagging mentagging.

salam.

ok.this is one of facebook crapplication,but i wud like to post it here rather than making a note in facebook.so here we are.

25 dn saya.

25) emm.i started driving cars (2 cars only,my kenari n ayah's renault) only a year ago.after i got my kenari.sebelum tu,spnjg my 'P' period,i never so much as holding a car's steering wheel.sgt takut!n to show how much he trusted me to drive my own car (i think he wanted to boost up my not-even-there confidence),my dad soh sy drive sdiri balik ke serdang exactly 2 days after i got my kenari.alone.can u believe that?so i obviously asked for help immediately,n there he came!the love of my life.my life saviour.maka sy pun drive ke utm to pick him up (sgt takut ok,seriously,baru 2 hari bwk kete after 3 years dpt license,the supposed-to-be 40 minutes journey felt like forever),n he drove all d way to serdang.hikhik.i love u honey!n thanks to kl drivers' attitude,i became a pre-expert driver in less than a year,n pretty much a rude one too!

24) car facts again.i can only drive automatic cars.sgt takut untuk drive kete manual ok.bcz im such a super-klutz.especially bile gear tamo masuk.sy akan jadi sgt kalut sehingga melupakan steering kerana sibuk nk masukkan gear.huhu.jd sy tidak menganggap lelaki2 itu tidak cool enuf sekiranya mereka men-drive kereta auto. i think they're smart,actually.kenapa nk susah2 masukkan gear sekiranya dh ade option yg lebih mudah dn relax?haih.

23) i can sleep d whole day to the next day tanpa mengalami ape2 perubahan pd struktur dn keadaan fizikal mata sy.no panda-eyes,no eyebags,nothing.n i consider that as a gift.ahahahaha.

22) sy sgt suka kuih tat nenas.sgt2 suka.sgt3 suka. sgt (drb pemalar avogadro kuasa infiniti) suka.

21) sy suka mkn durian,tp sy xske tempoyak dn apa2 produk berasaskan durian.not even dodol durian.or bubur durian.gule2 durian pun.xbleh bau pun.mesti mcm nk muntah.

20) i am a caffeine freak.hari2 sy mesti nk minum nescafe.kalo x minum rase mcm hari x sempurna.tp sy ada gastrik yg teruk,dn dr melarang sy dpd meminum sebrg produk yg mengandungi kafein.no wonder la gastrik ni x pnh nk baik.haih.

19) i cannot tolerate sour food.sgt2 tidak boleh.bende pahit,ok.bende manis,ok.bende tawar,ok.tp bende masam,no way.sy x mkn oren,belimbing,ciku, sbb die sgt msm.dn sy x ske jeruk,asam,buah kedondong,buah pelam muda,dh yg sewaktu dgnnye.kalo sy bau bende2 tersebut,secara automatiknya sy akan menutup hidung dn membuat muka pelik.so kalo awak sume nk mkn,sila jauhkan diri dpd sy,untuk mengelakkan anda membuat sbrg tafsiran bahawa sy tidak menyukai anda kerana u had such a terrible body odour,padahal yg sy benci adalah bau2 bende2 msm tersebut.time kasih.

18) sy sgt penakut.sgt2 penakut.pnh skali khairul bwk sy tgk cite long khong kat wayang. n i covered my head with his jacket throughout the movie.nice smell tho.i can put my head in his jacket forever =P.but that's not the point.the point is,sy memg x ske cite hantu.cite seram.bcz i 'll imagine scary things everytime i had trouble sleeping.n i had trouble sleeping a lot.n each time i imagine things,it freaks me out!n i'll end up with my eyes opened even wider.so im saying no to horror,scary,creepy movies.dn selepas insiden itu,khairul tidak lg membawa sy menonton cite seram bersamanya.buat rugi duit tiket,he'll say.dn setiap kali along dn neya tgk cite seram kat tv,sy akan masuk ke bilik dn menutup pintu.huhu.thanks to all d creeptacular experiences back in samura.

17) im not a nagger.i hate being nagged at,so i prefer if i dun hv to nag at people.im such a quiet person when it comes to nagging.so in our (me n khairul) relationship,he's the nagger.n i'll shut my mouth throughout the nagging period.that cools him faster,of course,but sometimes he will get soooo annoyed n irritated with me sbb die nag punye nag,but im not giving any sign of response.hikhik.

16) bile sy sgt marah,sy akan menangis.huhu.

15) i am indeed an unstoppable chatty.seriously.but only in my comfort zone,of course.if i ever start talking,u'll find it very hard to stop me!tatau la mcm mane org bleh kate yg sy sombong??

14) i can cook.seriously.bile sy ckp sy bleh memasak,sume org tak pcaya.tp sesungguhnya sy memg bleh memasak.not as good as moms always do,but still,bleh la kalo nk slmtkan perut sdiri,adik2 dn housemates.n khairul loves my cooking too (smbl sotong is his fav,i cook smbl sotong for him everytime die turun kl),so i guess they taste ok.hikhik.

13) ok.i know ure not gonna believe this one.but i actually can make women's baju kurung,from scratch.my mother taught me,few years ago.i even have a few of my baju kurung yg sy buat sdiri.tp sbb sewing is not my passion,so ive put that so-called kemahiran (ye la sgt) aside.but still,if u give me kain ela n ur ukuran,i can make a baju kurung for u.but this is not an offer ok!im jz saying that i know how,n i can.but terhad kpd baju kurung sj lah.yg len memg sy x reti.ahahahaha.

12) i actually dont know what my name means. mak kate,dulu2 mase mak blaja,cikgu mak kate,kalo tulis yuhaniz (in arabic words;ya,ha(bulat),alif,nun,dzal) on a paper 40 times n put the paper inside ur pocket,people nmpk u sweet je spnjg hari.that's where my name came from.i think at that time,my mom kinda hoped that i'll grow up to be such a sweet,good looking lil girl,but she obviously kinda frustrated with what ive become,right?so im soo sorry ive dissapoint u mom.muahahahaha.n people call me anis all d time.i think 'anis' means kelembutan,kot?but im far,far from lembut.plus,i only 'anis' myself with people who are really,really close to me.to others,im either aniz,or yuhaniz.anyway,i love my name.its kinda unique,not one of a kind,but still,unique,dont u think? -->masuk loker tutup sdiri.ahahahaha.n u dont want to try that arabic -yuhaniz-simpan-dlm-poket-u-look-sweet-all-day thing,trust me.cant u see what ive become?not sweet at all.so clearly my mom's teacher was a total fraud. hikhik.

11) im allergic to air udang (sgt2 xbleh kopek kulit raw prawn,i'll end up with bintik2 gatal yg ade air tu all over my hand),some fishes (tatau knp tp my left eyes akan gatal n merah n bengkak),dusty-dusty habuk (sy akn bersin spnjg hari),n shampoo rejoice (it makes my head rase mcm nk explode).but being a stubborn girl,i still kopek udang,mkn ikan,dn kemas2 tempat berabuk.sy cume x brani pakai shampoo rejoice.xbleh tahan sakit kepala.huhu.

10) im a big huge humongous fan of harry potter.i collect all d books n d dvds.i re-read the books for such an uncountable times,n i keep watching all d movies over n over again.i even bought the last book pada hari kedua die launch kat mesia,yg mase tu harga die rm 1++,semata2 sbb x sbr nk tau ending die,padahal 3 months after that buku tu dh trun harga jd rm39.90.takpela.bukan sy yg bayar pun (tenkiu cayang!).but obviously,d movies always disappoint me,sbb ive been expecting diz scene n that scene,tp takde.pastu d story line pun sgt diff dgn what's inside the book.but still,cant wait to watch harry potter n d half blood prince diz comin july!

9) sy ada mslh dgn digestion system sy.perut sng masuk angin,sbb takbleh skip waktu mkn.pastu bile dh masuk angin,mesti nk muntah pas mkn.but being a stubborn girl again,my eating schedule memg tunggang terbalik.so its no one's fault la.sbb tu bile sy sakit perut sy dok diam je (dok diam la sgt.neya n along n khairul yg jd mangsa kene dgr me whining.ahahaha).

8) considering my eating pattern,sy tatau mcm mane sy bleh gain so much weight for the past 5 years?

7) sy sgt suke tgk grey's anatomy.sbb sy sgt suke dr derek christopher shepherd.he's such a cool ,arrogant,sexy,handsome,romantic neurosurgeon.

6) i dun speak cars n drivers.sy cume kenal kete2 yg popular sj.so bile ain (my cousin) berborak dgn khairul pasal kereta,sy akan diam dn menghabiskan mknn sy.gud for both of them la.sbb kalo diorg bcerita dgn sy,sy cume akan mengangguk,dn akan ckp 'cantik.' padahal sy tatau pun kete tu rupe die mcm mane? n i'll annoy them both.hikhik.

5) sy x ske politik.i dun give a damn about the current political situation in mesia.sy rase politik hanya penuh dgn org yg corrupt,ckp besar,penipu,ske sgt cari kesalahan org len,sgt kompetitif in a very bad way smpi sgup menjatuhkan rival dgn ape care sekalipun.pd sy,politicians is jz a bunch of power-hungry morons.altho i hv to admit some of them sgt bagus in managing the country.but still,that doesnt change who they are n how they become who they are.

4) bile sy kat umah (pontian), sy akan mengabaikan fon sy.kalo ade org mesej pun sy memg mls nk bls.except for khairul,ain,n my housemates la.tu pun sbb dh asyik kene marah dgn mereka2 ni sbb sy x bls msg.kalo org len,memg mintak ampun la.

3) sy shampoo rambut sy tiap2 hari.siap dgn conditioner skali.sy tau its not healthy,tp sy rase kalo mandi x shampoo tu mcm mandi x sabun.huhu.plus,i love it when my hair smells good.maka jgn contohi sy.hikhik.

2) im not single, n despite of having arguments n disagreements n n ups n downs moments n misunderstandings in pretty much a high frequency, i actually love being not single.it comes in a package u know.maybe not nicely wrapped,dn ade flaws here n there,but still,i love being in love,with this charming n patient n caring n kind n sometimes romantic n all-too-willing guy name khairul fadzli samat.

1) sy syg mak sy.sy syg ayah sy.sy syg adik2 sy.sy syg atok sy.sy syg makcik2 n pakcik2 sy.sy syg ain.sy syg udin.sy syg mamat.sy syg along.sy syg neya.sy syg aifaa.sy syg ika.sy syg ana.sy syg amal.sy syg sume org sekeliling sy.dn sy sgt beruntung kerana mereka2 ini tidak berhenti men-support sy no matter what.



see,diz is why i cannot post this in facebook notes.i cant stop talking!ahahahaha.so i tag along,neya(walaupun ko takde blog,ko kene buat jugak),ika,syafiq,jan hafifi,pijah,qahhar,pyan,ain,aifaa,parau,all of coursemates,my best-fivers buddies,n everyone out there!pas buat,make sure u tell me,bcz i want to know 25 things about u too!hikhik.


salam.

the point.

Horrible things do happen.
Happiness in the face of all that,that's not the goal.

Feeling the horrible and knowing that you're not going to die from those feelings,
that's the point.

Bones break.
Organ bursts.
Flesh tears.

We can sew the flesh,repair the damage,ease the pain.

But when life breaks down,
when we break down,
there's no science, no hard and fast rules.
We just have to feel our way through.

There's nothing worse, and there's nothing better.

nothing.

You're Not Sorry
Taylor Swift


All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh

You're not sorry no no ohhh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

You're not sorry, no no ohhh


Listen to the song here







this song actually makes me cry,can u believe that?i guess i hv feelings after all.haih....

air dn muzik.

salam...

hari ni,kami,the inhabitance of A-09-23 telah men-shopping air di Giant Mines dgn byknye!
1) mineral water - 5L - 1 botol
2) drinking water - 5L - 1 botol
3) mineral water - 1.5L - 10 botol

mule2nye plan nk beli mineral water yg botol 5L tu je sume.tp oleh kerana yg kitorg amek tu dh last skali,so kitorg decide beli la yg 1.5L tu sbyk 10 botol dn drinking water 5L tu sebotol sbb kitorg sume x ske rase drinking water.hehehe.the reason?

sbb ari ni dh masuk hari ketiga air yg kuar dpd paip kaler mcm nescafe O yg cair.yg kalo masak nasi pun,nasi tu dh x kaler putih lg dh.maka kami pun decide mkn kat luar,sekaligus membeli air mineral sbb stok air nk minum pun dh takde!along la geram sgt,trus diborongnye air mineral kat Giant tu!ape la SYABAS.ingat kami x byr air ke?walaupun bil air bulanan kami memg la tidak menjejaskan keuntungan tahunan SYABAS kalau kami x bayar pun,tp x baik la buat kami mcm ni.kami pun nk gune air tau.nasib baikla takde diantara kami yg kulit sensitif kalo kene air karat.kalo x mane nk lari bile nk mandi?tatau ke manusia xbleh hidup lame tanpa air minum?haih......

ok.enuf about air.ari ni aku menghabiskan masa aku dgn mendownload 2 album taylor swift.memg sgt2 best suara die ni.dn most of d songs die buat sdiri,kalo die x buat sdiri,mesti die jd co-writer.n she's barely 20!very talented singer she is.memg best la....meaningful.dn keje2 mendownload lagu2 ni mengingatkan aku pd conversation kami (khairul n me) few nights ago.

"abg tgh dgr lagu lagenda rock ni."
"seriously?"-->tone surprised.
"ye la.abg bkan mcm awak."
"mcm anis pe plak?"
"cube awk tgk playlist awak tu,ade x lagu melayu?"
"excuse me honey,lagu revolusi-bunkface tu bahasa ape?portugis?"
"yela.rasenye x smpi 1% pun lagu dlm playlist awak tu bahasa melayu.lagu melayu takdela truk sgt.bleh je nk dgr.cube2 la dgr lagu melayu.it wont kill u,u know" --->mcm besela,membebel *rolling-eyes*
"ok2,nt anis try la download lagu melayu yg best.kalo jumpela lagu2 yg worth downloading.tp kalo lagenda rock,mintak ampun dn maaf la,memg la x bleh nk tune masuk dlm kepala."
"hmmmph."

maka selepas itu,dgn cepatnye aku menukar topik,untuk mengelakkan the usual

"ok syg,gudnight,i love u."
"i love u too baby,assalamualaikum."

bertukar menjadi

"oklah.abg nk tido."
"ok.gudnite.assalamualaikum."

not a good sign la kalo end of d conversation bunyik mcm tu.huhu.

aku bukanla mengagung2kan lagu dpd the other side of the world dn mengenepikan lagu2 melayu 100%.aku dgr je lagu melayu.i hv hotfm,xfreshfm n erafm set in my car radio.i even listen to sinarfm sometimes,walaupun secara terpaksa,bcz that's mak n ayah's fav station (ni la lagu mase mak ngn ayah muda2 dulu,they'll say),n my family travels a lot,so stiap kali jalan2,memg la lagu2 dpd sinarfm yg akan berkumandang di ruang udara serena tu.i hv no problem with that.no big deal.sblum ade modulator,aku siap beli lg kaset (kereta aku ni old skul sket,radio masih lagi pakai kaset) siti nurhaliza yg ade lagu cite spaQ tu sbb lagu die sume best2.tp nk mendownload,memg aku mls la.sbbnye,lagu2 yg didownload akan masuk dlm playlist,dn playlist is something that will be played repeatedly.dn sgt2 skit lagu melayu yg x boring didgr berkali2.maka lagu2 yg x best didgr berkali2 tidak akan dimasukkan kedlm playlist.dn lagu tu akan menjadi pekasam dlm folder music,smpila satu tahap,lagu tu akan di-drag masuk ke dlm recycle bin,dn 'empty recycle bin' akan di click right away.so buat ape nk download,kalo akan end up dlm recycle bin jugak akhirnye?lgpun,x ke mcm aku melindungi industri hiburan malaysia dgn tidak mendownload lagu2 melayu secara haram?kire ok la tu kan?hihi.

maka sokonglah industri hiburan tanah air dgn mendownload lagu2 omputih secara haram.

hikhik.


salam.


ps:to aifaa,sorila x dpt nk emel lagu2 taylor swift ni.besar gile.oleh itu,aku akan mem-burn kannye dlm cd dn nt2 la baru aku bg kat ko la yek.

pps:happy 23rd birthday to my fren, Muhammad Fauzi Narsri,may God bless u. =)

crapping.

salam.

ok.im not going to write any anti-valentine entry or something, bcz dh byk sgt org cite psl valentine ni.mcm dh ala2 boring jugakla.tp i want to share diz new n fresh opinion bout valentine here.i like diz blogger.he is actually my boyfren's bestfren's boyfren.actually that besfren of my boyfren was also my fren,since she (yes, she's a she) was our batch's samurian.she's his classmate,n i was kinda jz-fren with her bcz she's extremely sweet(im not exaggerating, she really is soo sweet) ,she's easy to get along with,she's kind n she's talking to me.so that makes her my fren.so she's actually my fren too.saje je nk ckp yg she's my boyfren's besfren's boyfren,bcz that sounds more complicated.ahahahaha.nway diz guy,her boyfren,was such a good writer.seriously.so his view bout valentine is diff,i agree 110%ly with him.so read that.me?i dun give a damn bout crapentine.never celebrate one myself.its jz like any other day to me.so screw valentine.

samurian.samura.sek men sains muar.huhu.such a place.it has been almost what,5 years since i left school?x pcaya my stressful-yet-so-memorable highskul days were soo over.im soooooooo missing d place.i miss my dormmates like hell,i miss d dining hall,i kinda miss d food (i cant believe i actually do,considering d facts that i was sooooo skinny those days for keep skipping lunches n dinners!),i miss d riadah hours(altho i'll be more than glad to skip those lari trek thing),i miss d library,where it will play diff channel of radio station each prep hours,i miss my 'kubur'-class(named after the unacceptable silentness),i miss exchanging silent glances n stares (muahahaha malu2!) with d guy whom now is my boyfren ,since my skul ni ala2 skolah agama skit,where physical n emotional interaction between two very different sexes was extremely n strictly forbidden,i miss being a qm(stands for quarter-master,the person who takes care of d gym's inventory.sgt bes jd qm ni,sbb takpyh lari trek bile bertugas.hihi.),i miss all the usrah n tazkirah,i miss d compulsary solat jemaahs(that's the only time ive ever solat jemaah.lepas skolah,sgt2 jarang.haih...),i miss d sick bay,i miss everything.n yg paling penting,i miss my self back then.but im soooo not going back to that time.tak larat nk rase stress blaja lg.huhu.

mlm ni aku ngn neya je berdue kat umah.along balik umah makcik die kat rawang.esok die balik sini dgn adik die.her sister akan stay for a week kat sini.aku hepi jek.takdela aku sorg2 kt umah bile diorg kene 'keje'.wakakakaka.neya pun sok pg2 balik umah die kot,sbb parents die ajak pg tgk upin dn ipin d movie.aku?mesti tgk,tp maybe mgu depan kot.oleh kerana kami berdue mls nk kuar,maka aku telah memasak bihun goreng sbg dinner.nasib ko la neya.nasib baik la housemate aku yg sorg ni sungguh2 x cerewet pasal makan.ape aku ngn along masak,die telan je.hehe.

so that's for the day.now im waiting for my boyfren to get back from some pre-graduate occasion kat utm sane.he needs to sing me a lullaby.ahahaha.


salam.


ps:happy 23rd birthday to my long-lost good friend, Mohd Arifuddin Imran.i wonder where u are now?

just like any other day.

salam.

ok.ive been meaning to write since last night,tp smlm i dozed off,right after our usual talking.gile ngantuk!n i spent this whole day sleeping.well,not the whole day,tp most of the hours.hihi.so now baru la dpt tulis ape yg jd smlm.

i was soooo happy yesterday!why?bcoz after struggling to answer those letrik bzzt bzzt questions for shasya's favour,tibe2 aifaa call n said she's coming!well,actually she's miscalling me n i did the calling after that,but still,she's coming!dh lame sgt2 x jumpe die,dn sgt byk story yg kitorg share.rindu gile!so my mood was over the top punye happy smlm.thanks sis!coming all the way from your pumpkin (she currently live with her mom in labu,negeri 9,n always tell people that she live in the pumpkin) to me!so we spent the whole evening,having dinner at my house (of course im the one who did the cooking) n chitchatting!of course im happy!she's one of my not-so-many bestfriends!

ok.that's it for my happy moment.back to my usual,boring,dull life.n to add some more boring details,im actually re-reading my harry potter's books.for the 'ive-lost-count'th time,of course.ive literally memorized most of the dialogs in there,for the so many times reading.but still,i didnt find the books boring.n actually,after i finish with harry potter,i'll start re-reading the twilight saga.n the balls will keep rolling!i love reading.n i love re-reading.i can re-read books for God knows how many times,n never get bored.of course this boring habit applies only for very great books,bcz i hate reading my collections of have-to-read journals n thesis.uuurrrggghh!

jiran sebelah,umah ujung ni,yg dulunya used to be umah 1 family india yg suke rapping stiap kali masuk waktu maghrib,pasang astro.family tu dh pindah dh.lame jugakla,a couple of months after kitorg masuk.memg bingit la pas ni,sbb umah sebelah ni suke sgt men game pasang audio kuat2,pasang volume tv kuat2.pas ni dh ada astro,God knows how loud will they sound.ish.trouble after trouble.lumrah hidup di rumah flat.bak kata aifaa smlm,duk sini boleh buat satu sitkom tv.wakakakaka.oh,didnt i tell u yg diorg,my new neighbours,are not even malaysian?yes,they are not.

that's for now.maybe mlm nt i'll write another entry.skrg ni aku nk fikir mlm ni nk masak ape untuk dinner,since neither of us,the inhabitance of A-09-23,rase mcm nk kuar rumah.huhu.


salam.

trouble-sleeping.

salam...

untuk kesekian kalinya,im having a trouble sleeping.susah btol nk tido.ish.now its 3.32 in the morning.padahal esok nk kene bgn awal,pg library *uuuurrggghh!!*,dn bayar bil telefon.yes,bil telefon bulan ni dh sampai pg td.how much is mine cost? RM22.70. oh i love CELCOM! kalo gune prepaid,RM30 topup tu tahan berapa hari jek.dgn kami yg secara berleluasanya texting each other n talking on the phone like the phone was glued to our ears,maka diz voicecall-videocall-smm-mms-free-to-each-other plan works the best.hihi.tenkiu cayang.of course for paying my bills for the first half-year.ahahahaha.

ok.back to d trouble sleeping thingy.hai la.stiap kali balik ke umah serdang ni,mesti susah nk tido.dn akan end up bgn setelah matahari pagi habis mengeluarkan cahayanya yg mengandungi vitamin D.ingat x best ke bgn lambat?memg la best.tp with me yg akan pg praktikal kat skolah ujung bulan 3 ni,sungguh2 la tidak praktikal.kenapa?sekolah masuk pkul 7.20 pg for crying out loud!mcm mane nk bgn??ada karang cikgu yg pg skolah dgn make-up ala2 smokey eyes gara2 menutup gejala mata-panda dn eyebags akibat x ckup tido!ish.xbleh2.so untuk mencari jalan penyelesaian,aku pun mengGoogle.mcm bese la kan.so i found diz website yg bg care2 mengatasi trouble sleeping.wanna know what they say?

Suggestions for Getting a Good Night's Sleep

**Follow a regular schedule--go to sleep and get up at the same time each day.
-->yeah.i did it like everyday.only i finally slept at 4 n woke up at 11.how's that?skip.

**Avoid taking cat-naps during the day.
-->most of d time,im not sleeping during d day.no cat-naps.no dog-naps.no whatever-naps.how do u expect me to sleep at 3 when i jz woke up 4 hours before?skip again.

**Try to exercise at regular times each day. Moderate physical activity 2 to 4 hours before bedtime may improve your sleep.
-->i hate exercising.next.

**To adjust your internal sleep clock, try to get some exposure to the natural light in the afternoon each day.
-->i'll end up exposing myself to the smell of tahi2 anjing yg membuang secara berleluasa di flat ni,seriously.rase mcm nk shove je the tahi to the lubang idong of the owner.tatau ke anta anjing pg skolah?najis tau x!kalo kene kulit anjing je dh kene samak,ape lg kene tahi anjing?sungguh cis.id rather stay inside my house d whole week.next.

**Eat smart, avoid heavy dinners, and don't eat too close to bedtime.
-->the trouble is i ate all d time bcz im hungry all d time n i cannot et my self hungry bcz then the gastric will come.no.not applicable.next.

**Avoid drinking caffeinated beverages late in the day--caffeine is a stimulant that can keep you awake.
--->i am a caffeine-freak!caffeine is my oxygen.how can i live without it?

**Refrain from drinking alcohol close to bedtime or in an effort to help you sleep. Drinking even small amounts of alcohol can make it harder to stay asleep.
-->i am so not drinking alcohol so i'll pass this.

**Smoking in an effort to help you sleep can have the opposite effect since nicotine is a stimulant.
-->pass.i hate smokers.m surely i am not one.

**Do something pleasurable before bedtime to help you unwind and get your mind off the day's responsibilities and nagging concerns.
-->yeah like what?

**Take a relaxing shower or bath before bedtime and, if you like to use fragrances, consider using lavender scented body soaps, lotions or oils for its naturally calming effect.
-->mane bleh mandi mlm2,nt kene paru2 berair.so much for a therapy website.dpt medical degree katne?akademi memandu bunga raya?

**Avoid over-stimulation before you go to bed. And only go to bed when you're actually tired. Don't try to force yourself to sleep, instead get up and "do something boring" then head back to bed.
-->overstimuwhat?i only go to bed when im actually tired.n im not forcing myself to sleep.n i love reading,im a total bookworm,so can u plez suggest me one boring activity?

**Be especially thoughtful about what end-of-the-night TV shows you watch and your bedtime reading selections. Avoid content that focuses on issues that are disturbing or that dwell on a topic that's currently causing you to feel concerned, worried, threatened, or afraid.
-->i watch canada's next top model like every night,n that show is sooo not make me feel concerned,worried,threatened or afraid.

**Listen to music you especially enjoy at bedtime. Play it at a low volume and make sure to select music with especially soothing rhythms and calming lyrics.
-->ive tried this.n since im still having d problem,then obviously its not working.pass.

**Consider purchasing an acoustic "nature sounds simulator relaxation machine" (typically under $20. at certain pharmacies, or stores like Target). Settings for such sounds as "Spring rain," "mountain stream," "ocean waves," and ""summer night" can help relieve end-of-the-day stress and act as a natural sleep aid.
-->i am one hell of a penakut girl.siyesly.so how can i actually sleep if this simulator thing makes me feel like im in somekind of mountain or in the middle of an ocean or something?surely it can help me freak out!

**Create a safe and comfortable sleeping environment. Make sure there are locks on all doors and smoke alarms on each floor. A lamp that's easy to turn on and a telephone by your bedside may be helpful. In addition, the room should be dark, well ventilated, and have all nonessential sounds blocked out.
-->sungguh2 sy telah mepraktikkan segalanya.but i still cant sleep!

so how?

i wanna know if my stress level is the problem,which im hell sure its not,but i took this test anyway.the result?

Self Assessment Results:

While no standardized test can precisely measure the level of stress you feel, your responses indicate you probably feel more "stressed-out" than you’d like*i am?*—and certainly much more than is healthy for you *is it?*. Our stress hormones are intended to help us react to extreme situations, but when everything starts to feel "extreme," *i am sooo not feeling extreme* it can be difficult to stop long enough to step back, get an accurate perspective, and come up with a plan for relieving and/or avoiding as much pressure as possible. Fortunately, there are a lot of things we can do to reduce the stress in our lives. Therapy can provide an excellent opportunity to develop new, more effective coping techniques for creating a life that’s as "stress-free" as possible.

so now i need a therapy?

whatever.

to girls,from girls,about girls,n for girls' eyes only.

salam..

dh lama aku nk tulis entry pasal topik ni.tp mcm malu skt la,sbb topik ni mcm ala2 sensitif skit.huhu.tp mcm mane nk share kan kalo malu.so aku nekad jela.lgpun dh ramai sgt org tanya aku pasal bende ni,menyebabkan aku rase mcm nk buat research skit.hehe.topik kali ni pasal PERIOD.or HAID.or whatever u called it,sbb mase skolah dulu,memg la byk name untuk makcik yg dtg tiap2 bulan ni.hihi.This time of the month memg la waktu2 yg menyeksakan jiwa *Ya Allah,kurniakan lah kekuatan* bg perempuan.every single month,for that matters.bg aku jugakla kan.huhu.dgn mensus cycle yg dh tunggang-terbalik mengalahkan time2 blaja addmaths dgn cikgu nordin mase form 5 dulu,memg la x bleh nk predict bile "the time of the month" nk dtg.huhu.sakit,x selesa lg2 bile hari2 heavy,dgn mood swing, memg la waktu ni adalah waktu yg mencabar tiap2 bulan for us kan?.by US,i mean GIRLS ok.so if ure not having this monthly occasion like we do,obviously ure not a girl,n this is not for u.hikhik.

ok.i'll start with the 'SENGGUGUT',or mainly known as period pain.ape tu period pain?period pain ni mcm salah satu dpd simptom2 PMS la.PMS stands for 'Pre-Menstrual Syndrom',yg biasanya dialami perempuan before,during n after 'the time of the month'.PMS ni ade byk,antaranya:

• Perut kembung
  
• Kejang perut
• Payu dara bengkak atau sensitif
• ketegangan atau bimbang (anxiety)
• Masalah tidur (insomnia)
• Sakit sendi atau otot
• Hayunan perasaan (Mood swings)
• Pening kepala
• Lesu
• Jerawat
  
• Peningkatan masaalah kulit sediaada, dan pernafasan (contoh, alahan, jangkitan) atau masaalah mata (gangguan bulbar, conjunctivitis

Source: wikipedia

Masa zaman dulu2,PMS ni x diiktiraf sbg sakit pun,sbb org dulu kate PMS ni hanyalah khayalan perempuan. *cis,berani diorg kate khayalan,die ingat kite sakit main2 ke ape?* pastu dh lame2,barulah org buat kajian pasal bende PMS ni.so period pain,or senggugut which medical terms die is Dismenorea, *kalau silap betulkan ye* adalah satu keadaan dimana seseorang perempuan tu akan mengalami kekejangan dn kesakitan yg teruk semasa period.hampir 50% perempuan mengalami masalh ni,dn selalunye die hanya berlaku pada hari pertama dn kedua.heavy days.lepas tu ok,dh x sakit dh.dismenorea ni bleh dikategorikan kepada primer dn sekunder.yg primer ni yg salunye berlaku pada hari pertama dn kedua,dn biasanya ia disebabkan oleh pengecutan otot rahim yg kuat semasa pengeluaran prostaglandin.bagi dismenoria sekunder,yg ni mcm teruk skit.slalunye disebabkan oleh penyakit2 mcm endometriosis(wujudnya sel endometrium di luar rahim dan berlaku pendarahan di dalam perut),fibroids(ketumbuhan pada bhagian rahim) dn penyakit2 yg berkaitan.yg primer tu salunye jadi pd org2 yg belum berkahwin,dn pas kahwin,die akan ok.yg sekunder tu yg bahaya,melarat2 sepanjang tenpoh pengeluaran tu.senggugut ni pun tak berlaku pd semua perempuan.so kalau tak sakit dn xde masalah ape2,jgn la risau.bersyukurlah.huhu.

mcm mane nk mengubati senggugut?ntahlah.salunye aku mkn panadol actifast je.tp merujuk pada satu health website ni,ada 4 cara or kaedah rawatan.tp yg aku rase seswai kalo taknak pg jumpe dr,2 jela.
1) makan ubat tahan sakit.
2) cara pemakanan yg sihat,exercise,jgn tension2,n jaga kebersihan sewaktu period.

so byk2 la bersenam,jalan2.maybe bleh kurg kot.huhu.

perkara kedua adalah ISTIHADHAH.aku pun confuse jugak pasal istihadhah ni.sblum tu,istihadhah ni adalah darah yg keluar yg bukan pada hari haid atau nifas.byk jugakla teori pasal darah istihadhah ni.tp menurut ape yg aku faham la,istihadhah ni ada 2 keadaan.

1) darah yg keluar di luar waktu kita biasa period.
2) darah tu asyik keluar je manjang,berhenti untuk tempoh sekejap je.ni mcm ala2 bleeding yg teruk la.

dn ada 3 situasi nk mengenali darah istihadhah ni.

1) kalau seseorang perempuan tu,tempoh period *tempoh dgn period tu bukan same ke,secara literalnya?huhu* die tiap2 bulan pun fix,6 hari je.tibe2 satu bulan ni,die period 10 hari.so darah yg kuar pd hari ke 7 hingga ke 10 tu dh dikira darah istihadhah.
2) bg org yg takde tempoh yg fix,bulan ni 7 hari,bulan dpn 3 hari,bulan seterusnye 9 hari,kire mcm tiap2 bulan pun lain2 hari,die bleh gunakan perbezaan warna,bau dn keadaan atau nature darah tu.kalau darah biasa,die kaler lg terang,lebih cair,x berbau dn tak berketul2.kalu darah haid,mcm yg u girls sume dh tau,lebih pekat,kale mcm hitam atau merah gelap,dn kdg2 berketul2 mcm darah beku.dn die berbau skit.so dpd situ korg bleh bezakan sama ada die drh haid atau drh istihadhah.kalo drh haid tu,kire mcm darah haid la,takbleh solat n puasa n stuff.tp kalo yg keluar tu mcm darah biasa,so tu kire darah istihadhah la.yg hukum ny kite akna bincangkan lepas ni.
3) bagi kes org yg takde tempoh period yg fix dn tak dpt nk bezakan darah die,so tempoh period die dianggap 6,7 hari,iaitu tempoh yg normal bg kebanyakan perempuan.after hari ke-7,darah yg kuar dikire darah istihadhah.

oleh kerana darah istihadhah ni adalah hadas berkekalan,maksudnye die keep seseorg perempuan tu sentiasa dlm hadas,so hukum2 ibadat bg perempuan tu lain skit.for instance,die kene bersihkan diri setiap kali nk solat.xbleh bwk air wudhu untuk 2 solat la maksudnye,sbb die kene bersihkan diri die dpd darah tu setiap kali masuk waktu solat.tp die still kene solat,puasa mcm biasa,xde pengecualian.pastu,melalu pengalaman aku sendiri masa skolah dulu,org istihadhah ni x bleh masuk dlm jemaah solat.die kene solat sdiri.untuk hukum2 yg lain tu,aku x pasti la.x berani nk ckp pape.aku akan still buat research lg pasal ni,dn aku akan update netry ni from time to time.

ok.next issue is,bleh ke org period masuk masjid?spnjg research aku pasal bende ni,aku jumpe mcm2 pendapat.ada yg kata harus,sbb perempuan haid tak bleh masuk masjid kerana dikhuatiri darah tu akan menitis.pada org yg berpegang pd keharusan ni,die org kate,kalo yakin yg darah tak kan menitis,maka diharuskan masuk masjid.pendapat kedua,org yg dlm haid memg takbleh masuk masjid.sbbnya,org yg dlm haid ni adalah dlm hadas besar,jd mereka ni 'kotor'.masjid adalah tempat yg suci,jd meleleh atau tidak,tetap x bleh masuk masjid jugak.pd aku,aku lebih setuju dgn pendapat kedua kot.huhu.tp untuk penerangan yg lebih lanjut,bleh la cari dlm thread2 kat website iluvislam ataupun bleh klik kat sini.bende2 hukum ni,aku x berani la nk pandai2.better korg bace sendiri kot.huhu.

dan sebagai tambahan,ada lg 1 bende aku nk share.mak penah ckp pasal ayat ni,so aku mcm ala2 tau la jugak.tp bile cari2 bende pasla tajuk ni,i came across satu article ni.so bg org perempuan yg rase mcm die period,so die x dpt nk solat,baca Quran,puasa dn sebagainya dan die risau die x dpt pahala apa2 dalam tenpoh period,bleh la bace petikan article yg aku dh sedut ni.hehe.

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Riwayat daripada Saidatina Aisyah R.A diambil daripada kitab yang bername Durratun Nasihin Fil Wa, zi Wal Israr dikarang oleh Osman bin Hasan Ahmad As Sakiril Khubuwi..

"Tidak ada daripada seorang perempuan yang kedatangan haid melainkan adalah haidnya itu menghapuskan dosa-dosa yang telah lalu daripada segala dosa-dosanya dan sekiranya ia membaca doa (dibawah) pada hari pertama yakni:

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
الحمد لله على كل حال واستغفر الله من كل ذنب

maksudnye: Segala puji bagi Allah di atas segala hal dan aku memohon keampunan kepada Allah daripada segala dosa..

-maka menulis oleh Allah baginya terlepas daripada api neraka dan dapat lalu di atas sirat dengan selamat dan aman daripada azab dan meninggikan oleh Allah Taala baginya dengan tiap satu hari dan satu malam akan pangkatnya empat puluh orang mati syahid manakala adalah perempuan itu mati syahid kepada Allah Taala di dalam masa haidnya..

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so bacalah ayat tu byk2 mase tgh period.it really helps,u know.kdg2 mase period kan ade rase mcm x sedap hati kan..nk solat x bleh,nk bace Quran pun x bleh,so bleh la bace ayat ni byk2.

pastu mcm biasala,sbg org Islam,kebersihan mase period mesti kene jaga.bersihkan dulu sisa2 darah tu sebersih yg mungkin sblum buang.aku dh experience byk sgt untuk tau ape akibatnya kalo bende tu dh dibuang dgn btul.huhu.ye la,bende kotor kan.bukan haiwan je yg suke.ade bende2 yg kite x nmpk pun suke kan.so be very careful,n btol2 jaga kebersihan.ni aku pun ingatkan diri sendiri jugak.huhu.


harap ape yg aku tulis dlm entry kali ni dpt la tlg org2 yg blom berapa faham untuk memahami.masih lg x faham?Google je la.hikhik.

salam.

ps:ni ada satu website yg sgt2 berguna bg kite girls.pd aku la.hehe.bleh la klik kat sini,atau pun bleh type this address: http://muslimah.or.id/fiqh-muslimah. enjoy reading.

Selfish by nsync - -

salam..

this is what i currently listen to.sebenarnya lagu ni dh lame..lame sgt2.rase2 same2 album dgn tearin' up my heart,bye bye bye,this i promise u.album no string's attached.rasenye la kot.tp bile dgr lagu ni,rase mcm sedih pulak.huhu.ntahlah.takde kena mengena dgn hidup aku pun.tp ntah.aku memg ske dgr lagu2 nsync yg zaman dulu2 skolah2 tu.sbb suke dgr suara JT dn jc chasez.hehe.tp memg best.saje nk share.tp pade sape2 yg x lyn mushy2 love songs,memg x seswai lo.so navigate away.hihi.enjoy.

I just don't understand
Why you running from a good man, baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
And why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
'Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself, babe
'Cause I think about you constantly
And my heart gets no rest over you, you you yeah

CHORUS:
You can call my selfish
But all I want is your love
And you can call me hopeless
Baby
'Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm
The only one for you

So what's wrong with being
Selfish

Yeah

I'll be taking up your time
Till the day I make you realise
That for you there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby, I would take good care of you
Now matter what is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby, believe in me
'Cause if love is a crime then punish me
I would die for you
'Cause I don't want to live without you
What can I do, oh

Repeat chorus

Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want to do is give you love
Forever and ever and ever

Repeat chorus

Selfishly I'm in love with you
'Cause I've searched my soul
And know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
'Cause I've searched my soul
And know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
'Cause I've searched my soul
And know that it's you

To prove that I'm the only one for you
So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish

So what's wrong with being selfish yeah

reminding.remembering.un-forgetting.

salam...

bulan ni perut aku dgn kerapnya telah disinggahi oleh seorang gastrik.ish2.terseksa jiwa raga.mcm2 ubat dh makan,dpd eno halia,ginger beer,dan antacid,tapi ape pun x jalan.salah makan kot?ntahlah.ape yg slhnye?tp bile fikir2 balik,betul jugak.kalo org gastrik,kene kurg mkn pedas,bende2 berminyak,mkn kene ikut waktu,interval antara waktu makan kene kurangkan.tp aku?bende2 pedas n oily jugak yg aku taram.mkn bile perut aku dh berlagu2 kelaparan.nasib baik bila time puasa,perut mcm seakan2 memahami kewajipan yg perlu dilakukan,dn gastrik x dtg!alhamdulillah..sebut pasal puasa,masih ada 1 hari lagi puasa ramadhan yg belum diganti.hmm..

tp mak kata,sakit tu kan dtgnya dpd Tuhan..dpd Allah..so Allah jugak yg akan menentukan bila masanya sakit tu akan baik.mcm masa skolah dulu,aku dgn kerapnya sakit kepala dgn teruk.bila dh sakit,apa pun x bleh buat.smpikan bekalan ubat sakit kepala x pnh putus.pastu mak mcm marah jugak la sbb aku terlalu bergantung pd ubat.mak kata,apalah salahnya bila sakit tu dtg,berhenti belajar ke buat ape2 keje tu,ambil wudhu,sembahyang sunat 2 rakaat.mintak kat Tuhan supaya di kurangkan sakit tu.kalo x dikurangkan,mintak kat Tuhan supaya dikurniakan kekuatan untuk overcome sakit tu,supaya kerja2 seharian dpt dijalankan dgn lancar.sbb sakit tu dtg dpd Tuhan.Tuhan jugak yg akan menyembuhkan.ubat tu cuma sebab.sbg 1 medium.teringat kisah nabi Musa dgn bani Israel.

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Pada suatu hari, Nabi Musa a.s telah diserang satu penyakit. Bila diketahui oleh Bani Israil maka mereka pun berjumpa dengan Nabi Musa a.s dengan berkata: “Wahai Musa, kami telah mengetahui penyakit kamu itu, oleh itu kami harap kamu tidak menolak ubat yang kami bawa ini. Kalau kamu berubat dengan ubat yang kami bawa ini, nescaya kamu akan sembuh”

Berkata Nabi Musa a.s: “Aku tidak akan berubat sehingga aku di sembuhkan oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa menggunakan ubat.”

Setelah gagal memujuk Nabi Musa a.s, maka mereka pun meninggalkan Nabi Musa a.s. Penyakit Nabi Musa a.s tidak sembuh hingga beberapa lama. Kemudian Bani Israil datang lagi dengan berkata: “Wahai Musa, ubat yang kami bawa ini memang terkenal kerana mujarabnya. Kami sendiri sewaktu diserang penyakit yang kamu hidapi ini telah kami gunakan terhadap diri kami, dan penyakit kami hilang apabila kami menggunakan ubat ini.”

Berkata Nabi Musa a.s: “Aku tetap tidak akan berubat sehingga Allah menyembuhkan aku tanpa menggunakan ubat.”

Kemudian Nabi Musa a.s mendiamkan diri buat seketika, lalu Allah s.w.t menurunkan wahyu kepada Nabi Musa a.s yang bermaksud: “Wahai Musa, Demi kemuliaan Ku dan keagungan Ku! Aku tidak akan menyembuhkan kamu sebelum kamu berubat dengan apa yang mereka (Bani Israil) sebutkan kepadamu.”

Lalu Nabi Musa a.s berkata kepada Bani Israil: “Ubatilah aku dengan ubat yang kamu katakana itu.”

Kaum Bani Israil pun mengubati Nabi Musa a.s dengan ubat dari tumbuh-tumbuhan, dengan izin Allah s.w.t, maka sembuhlah penyakit Nabi Musa a.s itu. Hal ini menyebabkan Nabi Musa kurang senang, kemudian Allah s.w.t menurunkan wahyu yang bermaksud: “Wahai Musa, apakah kamu mengkehendaki Aku batalkan hikmatKu dengan tawakal engkau kepadaKu. Tidak kah kamu fikir bahawa siapakah yang meletakkan ubat pada tumbuh-tumbuhan itu untuk memberi manfat kepada sesuatu. Bukankah Aku yang menjadikannya?”

Kemudian sedarlah Nabi Musa a.s dari kebimbangan yang melandanya.

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mak pun ckp,sakit ni adalah satu bentuk ujian yg Allah turunkan pd kita.nk uji,sejauh mana kekuatan iman kita.pun adalah cara untuk sedarkan kita bila kita mcm dh ter-cross the line.hihi.yelah,kalo korg perasan,bila kita sakit,kita mesti akan cakap, "Ya Allah...sakitnya...".tu tandanya bila kita sakit,kita ingat Allah,tu yg Allah bg sakit tu,sbb kita kdg2 terlupa nk ingat Dia.huhu.aku penah dgr satu tazkirah ni,tak ingat bila,rasanya mase skolah kot,sbb mase skolah dulu jelah yg slalu ada tazkirah dn usrah2 wajib pg ni.bila dh masuk uni ni,memg la lalai dn lupa.sbb x wajib pg kan.huhu.back to d tazkirah,mase tu,pentazkirah tu ada cakap,masa kita sakit ni, Allah akan hantar malaikat untuk tarik 4 benda dpd kita; seri muka kita,tenaga dn kekuatan kita,selera makan kita,dan dosa kita.lepas kita sembuh dpd sakit tu,Allah akan pulangkan semuanya pada kita,kecuali dosa.kalo mase kite sakit tu kite ingat Allah,kite x merungut,kite redha dgn kesakitan tu,maka Allah akan hapuskan dosa kita yg Dia dh ambil sebelum tu.tp kalo kita merungut,marah2 semua org masa kite tgh sakit tu,maka Allah akan pulang balik dosa tu pada kita.so,kesimpulannya,kalo kita sakit,redha lah dgn kesakitan tu.mungkin sbb kita ni terlupa,lalai.tu yg Allah turunkan sakit pada kita,supaya kita ingat.tu kan tandanya Allah tu sygkan kita,x nk bg kite tersesat jauh.

so kesimpulannya kat sini,kalo kite sakit tu,redha jelah...cari ubat,tp dlm masa yg sama,doa byk2 pada Allah semoga disembuhkan penyakit tu...walaupun sakit kite tu x jugak baik2,kite jgn skali2 berhenti dpd berusaha dn berdoa,mungkin Allah nk tgk sejauh mana usaha kite,sejauh mana kite redha dgn dugaan dn ujian dari Dia...sbb lagi dekat seseorang tu dgn Allah,lagi hebat ujian yg Dia akan turunkan..dn Allah tu takkan membebani seseorang tu lebih dpd kemampuannya..jd mesti ujian tu adalah sesuatu yg kite mampu tanggung..

jadi untuk cik gastrik,walaupun anda datang tanpa saya hantar kad jemputan,tp saya tetap akn menerima anda dgn redha,or at least i'll try my best to. mungkin byk sgt dh dosa ni..bukan mungkin,memg byk dosa pun..huhu...astaghfirullah al- adzim.....


this entry is mainly to remind me n myself.....

salam.




*really2 miss those days..zaman2 mendengar usrah dn tazkirah jd parts of daily routine....*

Just another story.

Salam...

Hari ni tgk Bride Wars.memg chumel.hikhik.best la sbb aku memg ske anne hathaway,she jz soooo thin n fair n pale yet so gorgeous!n cute too.sblum pg tgk wayang tu,mkn la dulu,sbb neya dh asyik bising je,lapar.so die g beli mknn kat fudkot mines tu,aku ngn along g beli tiket.pastu trun,kitorg pun carila mknn untuk alas perut,so aku g beli cheezy wedges kat kfc.the cheezy wedges is soooo cheezy,literally.x pcaya?


hikhik.betul kan?penuh sume wedges tu kene cover dgn cheese.padahal aku x mintak pun xtra cheese.

ni after sume kentang dh dimakan.masih lagi ckup kot nk buat 1 lg cheezy wedges?hikhik.


akhirnya.licin jugak.ahahahaha.

ni baru gila cheezy!

pastu aku pun nk pg la basuh tgn.puas la aku telek2 paip tu,mcm mane nk bukak?


langsung tade klu.pastu along yg btau.nmpk x bende bulat kale itam tu?
rupenye kene tolak naik atas,baru air die keluar.
cis.tak gune btol.pening kepala aku.nk basuh tgn pas mkn pun nk kene fikir mcm mane nk bukak kepala paip.huh.

pastu g la tgk bride wars.lg la tkejut kitorg.sbb dlm sebesar2 hall wayang tu,ade 7 org je for crying out loud!aku,along,neya,dgn ade 2 couple.ahahaha.ape lg bemaharajalela la kat dlm hall tu.

yg penting cite tu memg best la.

so balik je,kitorg bereksperimen dgn dapur.kunun2 nk msk ayam masak lemak cili padi la.hihi.for first timers,kire pas la.bleh la kalo nk mkn,walaupun takde serai,takde asam keping,santan gune santan dlm kotak,kunyit pun pakai serbuk je.hihi.buleh la....rase la ayam masak lemak cili padi,takde la rase mcm asam pedas.hihi.



till later.

the COMPLETE Quran~

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU DIUJI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; “Kami telah beriman,” (”I am full of faith to Allah”) sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta.”

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. “

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman.”

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan). “

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk”

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu’min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka… ?

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?

QURAN MENJAWAB
“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. “

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!

QURAN MENJAWAB
“… ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.”

- Surah Yusuf ayat 12

Because i am a girl...

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN)
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl...

If i were a boy.....

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful,
Waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy..






But you are just a boy,after all....

being strong emotionally.

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

obviously i am not a strong girl.



Oh Tuhan,please lend me Your Mighty strength...............

pissed off.

Salam.

hari ni aku bgn tido dgn mood yg sgt baik.alhamdulillah,syukur sgt pd Allah sbb bg aku peluang untuk bernafas sehari lagi.unfortunately,mood tu telah di-invert kan oleh 1 berita yg aku dpt dpd my very best fren.about d same guy,d same story.urrgh,y is it so hard to make people understand how i actually feel?n how on earth can he asked my fren to keep a story concerning me from me,when i am her bestfren n he is a total stranger who hurt her bestfren for such an uncountable time?ok,to u,if u ever read diz page again,here's ur damn explanation.u think u know me?u dont,so dont ever pretend or convince urself that u r d very best person on earth to judge me,kerana kononnya u know me so much.yes,i am a very bad person,im not a good muslimah,i know that alraedy,n my wrong-doings were way unacceptable,but never once i did that again with any other person that ever exist in this universe.u changed who i was.u took advantage.u make me listen to u.u forced me to give u everything u want.everything.did u ever noticed that i never said anything,or saying no to u bcz i was sooooooo scared with d harsh words that might come out from u,if i ever say no?so dun tell me that u r sooooooo in deep regret for not succesfully making me a better muslimah,bcz whatever happens to me now,who ever i am now,its all bcz of u.its all bcz of what uve done to me.dun u ever blame anyone for that,bcz the one u r blaming,the one u keep calling celaka,is the one that help me to be a better me.yes,he is not d most perfect person on earth,or maybe his record was not as clean as u in public,but at least he tried to make himself a better person for him n for me.he becomes a better person,day after day.but he's not d issue here.u are the issue,u are the problem.wanna know why?bcz,instead of all d tazkirah u gave me about being a better muslimah,u have not change even an inch from ur old self.not even a fraction of a milimiter,for that matter.u r still d same person i know,who keep finding holes,n never stop to try n take advantage!u said that i lie to u.was i lying?was i not telling truth?at least im trying be me.i know im not a good girl.but i am never a hypocrite.i never pretend to be such a good muslimah,or give people advices to become one.but u?u lie to everyone.u hide ur true self behind a face of such a good muslim.u are a major hypocrite.yes,i broke my promises.but why shud i keep my promises to a person like u?why shud i?why shud i stay with u if u keep breaking my heart into tiny-tiny pieces,way beyond repair?i dun hv any regrets in life.seriously.i came to accept that there must be something good behind every single thing that ever happened to me.i even pray for ur happiness.,for crying out loud!but now,today,u are the biggest regret in my life.im sooooo pissed off,i cant even find a word to describe it.so,instead of keep telling me that i shud become a better muslimah,keep working ur ass off trying to find my weaknesses,n keep telling me that u r d best person to do that,to guide me,plez,for all the good thing in the world,find ur own weaknesses.muhasabah diri sdiri.make urself a better muslim,bcz hell i know u are not.

u once told me this.

"dkt luar tu,ramai lg perempuan tudung labuh tgh tgu sy".

of course u were angry when the words came out from u.but still,at that time,it was true,wasnt it?so go find those tudung labuh's girl.that's what suits u kan?i am just a cheap,un-loyal,lying,breaking promises bitch.i know,bcz u said that urself.to my face.so why bother to be such a huge,humongous pain in this bitch's ass?

now u still want to blame anyone for whatever ive become?good.try blaming urself.bcz its all ur fault.wanna know what happened to me?u happened to me.u r the reason why i am me.so stop blaming others.bcz its ur own damn fault.

u know what,i actually dont understand why was it so hard for u to treat me like any other human being,back when i was with u.but i know now.i understand.ure willing to pay any price to get me back.any price,literally.u know what that sounds to me?it sounds that u actually think that i am some kind of stuff u can get at any major retail store or supermarket.u never thought of me as a human being,with the ability to feel feelings as acute as u can.that's why u keep taking me whenever u need me,n threw me away whenever u hv finished with me.hell u did that.for such an uncountable time too.so that explains a lot.to u, i was never a person.i am a thing.thing that can be thrown away anytime,any place,as u plez.

but no.im not praying for ur destruction.actually,im praying that u will finally find a girl,a good girl that suits u in every aspect of ur needs.a muslimah,for that matters.im praying that u will finally be a happy man,live a happy life,with a wife that makes ur world a happier place,kids that will become anak-anak soleh dn solehah n makes u happy n proud.u wanna know why?bcz i figure that if u manage to live a happy life,eventually u will stop to annoy the hell out of me!


oh God,im sooooooo angry.no,im not angry.angry doesnt even cover a quarter of what im felling now.im pissed off.oh yes, i am.im FREAKING pissed offffffff!!!!!!urrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!





notes:entry ini bukanlah untuk menghina sesiapa.entry ini hanyalah luahan rasa hati aku,seorang manusia biasa yg gagal melawan nafsu amarah yg betul2 tgh membakar.so no heart n hard feelings.this is jz me,pissing off.not with any of u,jz with a pigment of my past.sorry if this entry offense any of u,bcz that's not what i intend to do.sorry again.

thanks.thanks.thanks. (=

thanks cayang!!!!!!!

hmm.

Salam...

Ari ni aku nk share 1 cerita, about 1 sms yg aku dpt few days ago,dpd seorang hamba Allah yg used to be kinda somebody to me, long-long time ago. dlm msg tu,he said that he had this dream. about me of course. n he kinda worried,so he msg me,walaupun die rase mcm serba salah. ok lah,kalo die nk msg,bukan aku bleh buat pape kan? hmm. n few days later,my fren said something about me as his most trusted person to share his life stories,n thats bcz he trusts his first love. wanna know what i think? i think if its true that he trusts only me, n i didnt actually care if he's not, its not bcz im his first love whatever. its just happen that i am d only person on earth who knows him on both side;bad n good.n i know d very bad of him,but i accept him anyway. so he kinda feels safe if he spills things on me,bcz he doesnt hv to worry about bad impression hes gonna give me. that's what i think. but u know what? i dun care. i dun give a damn if he trust me or not. it wont change anything. it wont change the way i feel about him. n wanna know what i feel about him? i actually feel nothing. aku x marah. aku x berdendam. apparently holding grudges is not one of my many talents. i dun do revenge. n i can rarely feel angry with someone for a long time,no matter how big was the mistake,or mistakes he/she did to me. i forgive people easily. n i accept people back easily. i know its supposed to be a good thing, but im not proud of it.im not proud to be a person who easily accept people back after whatever he/she did to me. rase mcm senang sgt dipermainkan. tp aku dh tak nak fikir dah. ape je die,or any other person nk buat pd aku,aku dh x ambil peduli,selagi the thing tak menyinggung perasaan mak n ayah aku. aku happy dgn hidup aku skrg. aku ade parents yg supportive, frens yg slalu ade dgn aku whatever happens, n khairul.n nothing people said will ever change that. so u people, jz go to hell n make world a peaceful place,for heaven sake!

so back to neutral mode. ari ni aku smpi ke serdang pkul 6 ptg,lbh kurg. anta adik g melaka dulu. sgt penat,sakit bahu sbb dh lame sgt x drive sdiri balik johor. yela,that's what boyfren is for,kan?hehe. sbb dh beberapa kali pg balik johor khairul yg drive,bile kene drive sdiri,sakit2 1 bdn. ish. pas ni memg takdela nk balik sdiri. tumpang ayah je kalo nk balik. hihi. serik.

sok aku ingat nk tgk wayang. cite bride's war,anne hathaway n kate hudson kot? tp cite die mcm chumel je, n its not the story yg aku rase khairul nk teman aku tgk. dn housemate ku yg 2 ketul ni pun de kelas sok. huhu. so aku nk cari kwn tgk cite tu sok. skrg masih lg dlm pencarian. so sape2 yg rase die perempuan,berada dlm jarak 3km radius dgn aku dn berminat pd cite 2, blehla msg aku. hehe.

huhu.rindu mak.rindu ayah.rindu icah.rindu a'ad.rindu rumah.n i jz left home about 9 hours ago,for crying out loud.

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